The Question of Fear and the Answer of Faith - Part 1

Over the next few weeks I will be sharing one of Charles Spurgeon's sermons in pieces. It has been a blessing to me and I hope and pray it brings somebody else to know Jesus Christ and what He's done for you, and all of us - no exceptions!!
Please, if you have any questions you can send me an email at doitinpowerthroughJesus2016@gmail.com , get ahold of me on Facebook at Jesus Saves , comment below, or just ask for my number and I'll be more than happy to talk to you and pray with and for you! God is real and He's there for you too!
I will share this one section at a time, but if you wish to read it all at once (please read it in full and don't skim through it really quick), then here is the link:

The Question of Fear and the Answer of Faith  ( <---- Link!!)

A Sermon Delivered On Sunday Evening, August 31, 1856, By Pastor C. H. Spurgeon, At Exeter Hall, Strand.

"Will he plead against me with his great power? No, but he would put strength in me. (Job 23:6)"

"1. I shall not tonight consider the connection of these words, or what was particularly intended by Job. I shall use them in, perhaps, another sense from that which he intended. No doubt, Job meant to say, that if God would allow him to argue his case before him, it was his firm belief that God, so far from taking advantage of his superior strength in the controversy, would even strengthen him, that the controversy might be fair, and that the judgment might be unbiased. “He would not plead against me with his great strength; no, but he would put strength in me.” We shall use the text, however, tonight, in another sense."

https://answersingenesis.org/education/spurgeon-sermons/108-the-question-of-fear-and-the-answer-of-faith/

I AM BEAUTIFUL!!!

I don't even know where to begin besides by saying I am beautiful! 
The above statement might be obvious for some, but for me, it's something I've struggled with for a long time. A very long time. I get nervous if the scale says 132 and begin freaking out when it hits 135 or above. My goal has been 115 for a while, but I can't ever seem to get there and that's when I start mentally or physically beating myself up. Some people are well-intentioned and might be able to get me to eat a big meal when I don't feel like it by talking to me about how little I eat, but it always makes me feel worse inside because I can't handle the stress of people commenting on my eating at all, even if it's funny at the time. I'll just overthink it inwardly or at a later time.
I look in the mirror and see myself as pretty, but then I begin to point out my flaws. People say I look really young, but why can't I see that? Why do I look so old and worn out to myself, but not to others? Sometimes I can look ok, and occasionally pretty when I put makeup on correctly, but even then... 
Well, I don't think I can just end with that because after today I believe things are going to be way different! Here's my journal entry from 10:43 p.m.;

" I asked God to help me see myself how He sees me when I look in the mirror, and now it just seems like I only picture God holding my face in His hands when He made me and Him molding me perfectly. I picture Him looking at me with such adoration and just seeing how much He thinks of me by the look in His eyes and on His face. I'm beautiful to Him and He created me beautifully!
I just keep thinking over and over again of my face in His hands. Tonight that's all I see when I look in the mirror and it's beautiful! I am beautiful!
Each stage of life He's not only molding my spirit but holding my face in His hands and molding it into what's unique and beautiful to Him!"

I am smiling for real now! My smile is beautiful to Him and now it's even beautiful to me! I think of other's now and can just see God looking at them the same way. He created my daughter and is holding her face in His hands too. My God is awesome! He is the Creator of creators and the only maker of true beauty! :)

How do I know God is real? Because He's the only One that could even change my mindset in this area. I've read, talked to people, and thought about it so many times trying to change, but only my Father could truly make me feel beautiful! He's looking at me smiling right now, I'm sure! My God loves me and I'm falling in love with Him more and more every moment. His mercy and grace are so overwhelming at times, as they should be!
I've never longed for the day when I can actually feel His hands holding my face, and telling me how beautiful I am to Him, so much. I'm ready to see Him and give Him a big hug!
I just can't get over this and really hope I don't!
 Read Psalm 139 - KJV

I'm Thankful For...

1 Chronicles 16:8 KJV says,
 " Give thanks unto the Lord, call
upon his name, make known his
deed among the people. "

God blesses us to get glory. I have to ask myself if God is getting glory from all He's done for me, because I think it's so easy to just take everything for granted and not realize how much we've been blessed with until we end up losing it. What you aren't grateful for, you probably aren't going to take great care of, and what you don't take great care of you will eventually lose or have taken away.
Give thanks for the things God has given you. I hate to be cliche, but if you woke up with everything you thanked God for today, what would you wake up with? I'm preaching to me on this one! I am going to make a short list of 10 things I am extremely grateful for and I encourage you to do the same thing on a blog, in a journal, on a Facebook page, or just in your prayers. Let God know how grateful you are for everything you've been blessed with! :D

1. I'm thankful that God took my fear away! I use to think I was unloved, going to Hell for all the wrong I'd done, and that Jesus would never forgive me. Any time I begin to doubt that this peace I feel is real I just have to point to the fear I used to have and I can praise God that it's all gone because He forgave and continues to forgive me! :D

2. I'm thankful for the unending grace, mercy, and forgiveness from my Heavenly Father because of the sacrifice of Jesus Christ! Jesus Christ has and is becoming more real to me everyday!

3. I'm thankful for the guidance of the Holy Spirit! When I am uncertain I can just pray and wait on Him to lead me and He will always come through when I am in His will.

4. I'm thankful for the friends that God sends along that don't judge me for my past or for where I am, but instead encourage me to just grow closer to Christ because it's right there that I can be totally transformed and renewed and where I can get my life in the order that God would want it to be in.

5. I'm thankful for all the great Christian materials out in the world whether books, blogs, music, or even a simple tract. They are greatly encouraging when the right one is found.

6. I'm thankful for my little Autumn Marie Habegger, because without her I don't think I would have realized the unconditional love that a parent has for a child. I have done so, so much wrong and definitely don't deserve this beautiful little baby!
 A gentleman pointed out to me how much more my Heavenly Father loves me compared to the love I have for my baby. God's love is perfect and mine definitely isn't! Wow! That makes me want to cry right now! I cannot even fully comprehend His amazing love for me - and for you too! :D

7. I'm thankful for what God is doing in my family. Family members getting saved, surrendering to preach, working hard day after day, raising children, and just being great family members in general! :) <3

8. I'm thankful for what God is doing in my life. I have had two great internships the last 2-3 months, and though they are about to end, I have met some amazing people and I know God will provide for this next step of my life. I will be starting class soon to learn the Call Center trade stuff. I'm so, so thankful because I passed my HSE - only because of prayer and hard work! I should've and could've worked harder on trying to get a higher score, but I'm just thankful I passed.

9. I'm thankful for a creative, imaginative God that didn't just make us all robotic and alike. We each have our own talents and no talent is to small to bring glory and honor to God.
All the colors in the world are beautiful! Think about it... If God would have made everything black and white then I wouldn't be able to be so happy when I saw a vibrant, bright, yellow dandelion! Did I mention I am thankful for dandelions? :p

10. I'm thankful that God is teaching me to see myself how He sees me! I really am beautiful without starving myself, having to have somebody tell me, and when I have a bad day. I am God's creation - His princess - and I wouldn't trade that for the world!

Big God, Little Me

This is my notes from this morning's service. I hope you can understand them. Church was great this morning! 

Romans 11:26-36

Isaiah 40:12-14

Sometimes we're guilty of shrinking God. (We can't bring God down to our human understanding. His ways are way above our own and way beyond our understanding.)

John 3:30-36 - Verse 30 really stood out to me!

Walking with God requires - 

1. Humility and Gratitude 

2. Agreeing with God - Amos 3:3

3. Time and Effort (discipline)

4. Right Motives and Right Ambitions

     What gets in the way to make a Christian become a prodigal and backslidden? Self. The Prodigal instead of working and waiting for his heavenly reward wanted his reward now.
What am I allowing to influence me?

Godly, right songs? 

Don't usurp God's position in your life.

Usurp - take (a position of power or importance) illegally or by force

Give up the throne of my life. 

Abdicate - renounce one's throne

Who's on the throne of your life?

Knowing God is in charge removes fear and panic. He is perfect, we are imperfect. He is strong, we are weak. He is in control, I am full of world, fear, and deceit. God can give me the real interpretation what the world really is.  

God is omnipotent, omniscient, and omnipresent.

Blessings

I keep hearing about people being blessed by not giving up on God and by not forgetting or losing faith in His promises. These things give me hope! This is why it's important to share our stories because no blessing is to small to share with others! If you think your blessing is to small then you're not focusing on God and what's important. 
What are your most recent blessings that you can give God thanks for today? If you want a challenge then think of 2 things in the last hour that have been a blessing to you! Challenge yourself and you will find yourself looking at things in a more positive light.
Thank you to the friends that don't let me focus on the negative, but on the blessings around me and even challenge me to find the positive in some of the most negative people around me.
Also, if there's one thing Dani Johnson is teaching me it is that your success story can make a difference in someone else's life and in the decisions they make so go ahead and share your blessings! :D
Also, go and check out DaniJohnson.com . She has so many great resources. Whether it be her "Daily Fix" she'll send to your email, radio broadcasts, videos, or her free ebook "First Steps To Wealth" I know you're going to be encouraged by something she has to offer.
God bless you!

My 3 blessings of the day?

1. I am doing a 30 minutes a day with God for 30 days and I haven't come away discouraged yet. In fact, it clears my mind. 
2. I'm grateful for my mentors, friends, and sister who are holding me accountable to God so I actually stay in His word.
3. I received a devotional book in the mail (For my sisters, but they don't know yet! :p ) for free!

"In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you."
                                 1 Thessalonians 5:18 (KJV)

37 Weeks Pregnant On Tuesday!!!

Next week is super baby week!  I will be 37 weeks pregnant on Tuesday!!!
I am so ready to pop!! And I am really beginning to hurt more, but I still wouldn't trade my little girl in for the whole world!
Some lady came up to Nick and I at Meijer and guessed that we were having a boy. Of course, she continued on after we told her she was wrong to tell us this was the first she'd been wrong out of about 50 pregnancies, so now Nick thinks it might be a boy all over again. He really is keeping his hopes on that. I'm glad he'll be happy either way! It's so cute when he talks to her and she moves with almost a renewed energy. He's going to fall in love with her even more when she gets here!
I'm trying to get last minute plans put together and I still need to pack my hospital bag. I'm not 100% sure I know what I need yet, so I should probably start working on that as soon as possible.
Tuesday evening is the Hope Center class and appointment with an advocate (one of my favorite advocates!! :D ), and in the morning is the wrap up at the hospital of signing papers to get ready to have the baby, hopefully not to long after, and following that is the first doctors appointment where I think they will check to see if I'm dilated at all!
Wednesday (if Nick is able to get it off!) is when we do our birthing class together and possibly go get some baby clothes together!

(She's grown so much since this

 ultrasound! This was our very

first time getting to see our

sweet Baby Autumn! <3 )

I'm still going to go all natural so please keep me in your prayers for that! :D
Any suggestions for natural delivery then please put them in the comments below. Honestly, any advice will be very much appreciated!
In the mean time, I'm getting nervous and thinking of all the questions I may have forgot to ask the doctor so any good questions to ask her would be great to hear about too!
Thank you, Autumn, for teaching me how to love in a whole different way! I hope you see how blessed we are to have you in our lives one day! God has been so good to us and He's used you as our blessing in so many ways! Especially to me! I love you! <3

My Excitement In God's Joy And Peace! Part 2

 This is a lot shorter then Part 1 of my journal entry, but I thought I'd share it separately because I wrote it separately about 20 to 30 minutes later.

Let it be a reminder to everyone (including me) that God's ways will always make us and Him happier and NO ONE can take away His love from us! 

God bless! :D

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 "I just want to say that if I ever get down and doubt that this joy, peace, and excitement in me was of God, I hope I see this as a reminder because this happiness in me feels so unreal and it's nothing this world could give me because this is a happiness no one can take away.

May I have the courage to follow God's ways no matter the task!"