37 Weeks Pregnant On Tuesday!!!

Next week is super baby week!  I will be 37 weeks pregnant on Tuesday!!!
I am so ready to pop!! And I am really beginning to hurt more, but I still wouldn't trade my little girl in for the whole world!
Some lady came up to Nick and I at Meijer and guessed that we were having a boy. Of course, she continued on after we told her she was wrong to tell us this was the first she'd been wrong out of about 50 pregnancies, so now Nick thinks it might be a boy all over again. He really is keeping his hopes on that. I'm glad he'll be happy either way! It's so cute when he talks to her and she moves with almost a renewed energy. He's going to fall in love with her even more when she gets here!
I'm trying to get last minute plans put together and I still need to pack my hospital bag. I'm not 100% sure I know what I need yet, so I should probably start working on that as soon as possible.
Tuesday evening is the Hope Center class and appointment with an advocate (one of my favorite advocates!! :D ), and in the morning is the wrap up at the hospital of signing papers to get ready to have the baby, hopefully not to long after, and following that is the first doctors appointment where I think they will check to see if I'm dilated at all!
Wednesday (if Nick is able to get it off!) is when we do our birthing class together and possibly go get some baby clothes together!

(She's grown so much since this

 ultrasound! This was our very

first time getting to see our

sweet Baby Autumn! <3 )

I'm still going to go all natural so please keep me in your prayers for that! :D
Any suggestions for natural delivery then please put them in the comments below. Honestly, any advice will be very much appreciated!
In the mean time, I'm getting nervous and thinking of all the questions I may have forgot to ask the doctor so any good questions to ask her would be great to hear about too!
Thank you, Autumn, for teaching me how to love in a whole different way! I hope you see how blessed we are to have you in our lives one day! God has been so good to us and He's used you as our blessing in so many ways! Especially to me! I love you! <3

My Excitement In God's Joy And Peace! Part 2

 This is a lot shorter then Part 1 of my journal entry, but I thought I'd share it separately because I wrote it separately about 20 to 30 minutes later.

Let it be a reminder to everyone (including me) that God's ways will always make us and Him happier and NO ONE can take away His love from us! 

God bless! :D

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 "I just want to say that if I ever get down and doubt that this joy, peace, and excitement in me was of God, I hope I see this as a reminder because this happiness in me feels so unreal and it's nothing this world could give me because this is a happiness no one can take away.

May I have the courage to follow God's ways no matter the task!"

My Excitement In God's Joy And Peace! Part 1

This is my journal entry from yesterday (Part 1)! I wanted to share my experience from when I met with God yesterday, but this is the best I can do for you for now. 
I ended up running late for the morning service and missed Sunday School because I was having such a great time -like never before - reading the Bible and just praising God! I am so excited because God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit are so real! 
By the way, I got baptized yesterday too!!! YAY!! :D
Feel free to share about your favorite moments with God too whether it's in the comments or via your social networking sites because it's encouraging to all!
Please remember that God is good - always! :D 

-----Sunday------ 10:35 a.m.-------- 07/19/2015----

"I just want to say in the simplest words I can -
  Hallelujah I can come unashamed to a holy God!
  Hallelujah for a high priest making intercession for me!
  Hallelujah for a hand to pick me up when I've fallen!
  Hallelujah for grace!
  Hallelujah for mercy!
 Praise God for His goodness to me!
 Praise Him for His undying love!
  God is good all the time!

Romans 3:19-28, Romans 10:11, and Ephesians 2:8-9 just encouraged and strengthened me so much in faith through Christ Jesus ALONE! God's mercy and grace is so good!
I was baptized before without fully grasping this concept, but now that I get it I want to be baptized again!
Because of God's goodness I can represent Christ in this world and start by being baptized just like Acts 2:41 says!
Psalm 119:109a says "My soul is continually in my hand:"  but thank God it's no longer through my works in the law to redeem it, but God seals it because I've been redeemed!
  Hallelujah my debt is payed!"

A Clear Conscience by Charles Spurgeon - Only Part 1 (Link Below to rest of it)

Then I shall not be ashamed, when I have respect for all your commandments. [Ps 119:6]

1. Any attempt to keep the law of God with the view of being saved by it is sure to end in failure. It is so contrary to the express warnings of the divine Lawgiver, and it runs counter so much to the whole gospel, that he who dares to seek justification by his own merits ought to be ashamed of his presumption. When God tells us that salvation is not by the works of the law, are you not ashamed of trying to procure it by your obedience to its precepts? When he declares that by the works of the law no flesh shall be justified in his sight, are you not ashamed to go and seek after justification where he tells you it never can be found? When he over and over again declares that salvation is by faith, and that it is a matter of grace to be received, do you not blush for yourself that you should make God a liar, and propound a righteousness from your own conceit, in which you have vainly tried to keep up a respectable appearance, screening the palpable delinquencies of your life under a thin veil of piety towards God and charity towards men? Eternal life is not to be earned by any trade you can carry on in works of the flesh; because, however esteemed in the opinion of men, they are simply abominable in the sight of God. If a man seeks to keep the commandments of God in order that he may attain eternal life by it, he will be ashamed and confounded. He had better at once renounce the folly of attempting so insane, so futile, so impossible a task as that of defending his own cause and justifying his own soul. But when a man is converted, when he has believed in Christ Jesus to the salvation of his soul, when he is justified by faith and his sin is blotted out, when he has obtained mercy, found grace in the eyes of the Lord, and entered into the rest of faith, because he knows that he is a saved man, then in keeping the precepts of the law he will gratify a strong inclination. In fact, it henceforth becomes his highest ambition to be obedient, and the great delight of his soul is to run in the ways of God’s commandments out of gratitude for the great benefits he has received. And let it never be imagined that, because Christ has redeemed us from the curse of the law, there is therefore a complete removal of all moral constraints and restraints from Christian men. We are not under the law, but under grace, yet we are not lawless and libertine, since we have become servants of God and followers of Christ. Indeed, but we are under another law — a law of another kind, which works upon us in another way. What if a man says, “I am free from the police, and the magistrate, and the judge, and the executioner,” does it therefore follow that he is free from the rules of his father’s house? Assuredly not. The child may be quite clear of the police court, but there is a rod at home. There is a father’s smile; there is a father’s frown. And though Christians shall never be punished for their sins so that they can come under condemnation, since they are completely delivered from that evil calamity by Christ, yet being children of God they come under another discipline — the discipline of his house and home — a discipline of chastisements not at all of a legal caste; for, however bitter the suffering it often entails, though he causes grief he will have compassion; the rebukes are sharp, but the retribution is not vindictive: and the Lord is accustomed to smile with approbation, to speak with commendation, and to bestow his compensations with liberal hand on those who seek his face, listen to his voice, and do his bidding. When he has committed to us some service which he only could qualify us to discharge, he has often caused us to partake of the fruits in abundant joy. Now, I shall endeavour to bring out this principle while I am speaking upon our text. Those who are children of God should seek after universal obedience to the divine commands. They should have respect for all the Lord’s commandments. If they do so they will have a full requital; and this is the reward. “Then I shall not be ashamed, when I have respect for all your commandments.”

(Here is the link to the rest of the sermon which I am currently working through ) - https://answersingenesis.org/education/spurgeon-sermons/1434-a-clear-conscience/

Faithful

I have to admit that I've been feeling God staying very distant from me for a few weeks now and it's been really hard spiritually because if I'm being honest I know it's because I sinned and didn't know how to say the simple "God, I'm sorry." because it just seemed cliche...
I was talking to one of my friends this morning and just wanted to say that God really used her to put my focus straight on some things and when I wasn't sleeping today I was really  thinking about it and trying to ignore the nagging feel in me that I needed to take the time to apologize for what I'd done wrong. Well, tonight I've been listening to Amy Grant's album "How Mercy Looks From Here" and Moriah Peter's album "Brave" and just hearing some of the lyrics made me realize that grace is always there for me, even if I don't feel worthy of it. Really, I have to be messed up in the head to ever feel like I deserve it.
Satan does a good job of making me feel like God holds every single sin over my head from all of my past when I fall just one time. I know I'm not the only one to believe that lie and it's crazy to admit I even fall for it every time but Satan is the god of deceit and is very good at mind control. 
Here is what God says about my sin -
"I, even I, am he that blotteth out thy transgressions for mine own sake, and will not remember thy sins." ~ Isaiah 43:25 (KJV)
He does it for His own sake! Not for mine, but for His! Isn't that amazing!!
I was praying and telling God how it hurts when He ignores me and then it all of the sudden hit me and it was like He was saying "Well, that's what I feel like when you ignore me." and that's when I realized that it really does hurt God when I (or any of us) sin. 
I know I make mistakes and I'm sure I haven't made my last but it's good to know that I have God's forgiveness and grace for all time and that He's always there for me! 

"Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ:"
                                       ~Philippians 1:6 (KJV)

Unlimited Forgiveness!!

Tonight's sermon was really informative about Satan falling from Heaven to the earth but I have to say my favorite was this morning's reminder that God still loves me! 
That's been a big one on my mind this weekend and I feel like it was helpful to other's but that it was like the Holy Spirit wanted to single me out and let me know that God doesn't have limited forgiveness but will do it countless times! I may fail over and over again but I shouldn't get discouraged because each time I run to Jesus might be the last time I fall in that sin again!
There are always consequences for every sin so we shouldn't assume we can take advantage of God's grace because that's not what His grace is for. But we should always be ready to run to God and confess (from the heart) that we've sinned and He will be more than willing to forgive us!
All that to say, God is good and that doesn't even begin to sum His greatness up.

God Still Loves Us

Crazy thought... God knows the sins we'll commit in the future. That means that if He was gonna let us go for doing something wrong that He would have done it before it happened because He already knows about it. I think human understanding has trouble comprehending (at least in my mind) that God doesn't let us go just because Satan makes us feel guilty and says He does.

 "For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God:

 Not of works, lest any man should boast." ~ Ephesians 2:8-9 (KJV)

God's grace doesn't give up and make us work for our way into His favor just because we do wrong. If that were the case Jesus would not have died on the cross to completely erase our sins if we trusted in Him, would He?

It's really amazing that no matter how bad I am that God still loves me.  

Does it still hurt Him and my relationship with Him when I sin? Yes! If I ask Him to forgive me then will He? Undoubtedly, yes! 

"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness." - 1 John 1:9 (KJV)

Does that mean I can sin and know I'll be forgiven no matter what? Yes, but why would I want to do that when God has been so good to me - Me, who is so unworthy of His love?

"What shall we say then? Shall we continue in sin, that grace may abound? God forbid. How shall we, that are dead to sin, live any longer therein?" - Romans 6:1-2 (KJV)

We should leave our sins behind and run for what we know (between us and God) to be truly right.

"Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us," - Hebrews 12:1 (KJV)

God's grace is so amazing and honestly until you've experienced it deep down and personal within yourself then you can't sing Amazing Grace How Sweet The Sound and actually feel the gratitude towards Jesus in your heart! 

So no matter what doubts we have we should push them aside and just run towards Jesus no matter who tells you He isn't there for you anymore!

God is a righteous and just God and His promises are true!

"for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee." - Hebrews 1:5 (KJV)

All I can recommend is the same thing that God recommended in the Bible. Put on the armour of God because your doubt is Satan's way of attacking you spiritually. Yeah, he's real cunning and you'll think it's not him but Satan is the master of deceit and only Jesus can fully protect and make you able to stand against him in the day he tries to bring you down.

So I'll end it with these final verses that are key to staying strong in Christ Jesus!

10 Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might.

11Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.

12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.

13 Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.

14 Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness;

15 And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace;

16 Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.

17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God:

18 Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints;

                                                                    - Ephesians 6:10-18

Facts About My Baby!

  I thought I'd share a few things about my little baby for anybody that cared to know! Even if nobody does really care it is what makes me excited because this little baby is very quickly becoming my whole life, so I'm going to share some things that you might, just may, care about!!! :D

Name ~ Autumn Marie Habegger - Little Peanut 
Gender ~ It's a girl!!!!! I'm so excited because not everybody gets the gender they hoped for on their first baby! :)
Due Date ~ September 8, 2015 (Hopefully she holds out til her Uncle Jake's birthday on the 13th!!!) 

Her dad is going to be the best daddy for her ever! He already adores her so much!
Here's a picture of the chain he got for her.
  
                                                   

This little girl seems to be a night baby because whenever the lights go off and it's time for bed she starts beating me up from the inside! :p
I really can't wait to see her when she's here!
I really hope she has an auburn red hair with blue eyes but I know she'll be perfect no matter what!
With all her uncles and aunts she is definitely going to have a huge welcome committee!
She is officially 23 weeks old with only 17 more to go until she's here.


    WE LOVE YOU BABY AUTUMN!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Happy B-Day to the world's best Mom! We all love you and wish you many more! :D





                                             

Empty Me

Well, I think this is easier than writing a journal with the whole losing paper and ripping it and stuff, and typing a blog will get my energy out and make me feel like I’m doing something productive. For some reason, writing gets boring and I can’t write as fast I type so I lose my train of thought long before it gets written down…

This is just to get me back into the habit of blogging, I guess, because I’m just typing random stuff.

Such as, I’m listening to Family Force 5’s song BZRK.  FF5 was at WinterJam! I think they are better (and much more humorous) to watch live! It just gets you all excited and wanting to dance and know all the words but I don’t like how they aren’t real clear about God in the stuff I heard - not to say that they aren't close to God or anything. Jeremy Camp on the other hand was very out there, yet still personable, about how your relationship with Christ should be. I think all WinterJam artists should be trying to bring everyone to Christ more than they should be impressed with there own music. I know that’s probably a hard thing to do because it probably gets to you being in the spotlight all the time.  I heard a song by Chris Sligh last night that went something like this -

             “I've had just enough of the spotlight when it burns bright

              To see how it gets in the blood

              And I've tasted my share of the sweet life and the wild ride

               And found a little is not quite enough

               I know how I can stray

               And how fast my heart could change”

and I guess it made me understand more that even when worship artists are in the spotlight it doesn't make it easy for them to be about God because naturally they'd want the human praise as well as you and me would. He goes on in the rest of the song to talk about God emptying him of himself. That should be our prayer everyday! My prayer is that God will empty me of me so I can be filled with Him!

Anyway, I need to wrap this up because Mom is making something that smells delicious for dinner!

God bless you all and I just want to say that following Jesus pays off whether you know it now or not! :)